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[Sun only just stares at her for a few moments, words really fail him at the moment. He knows a lot has been taken out of Weiss, taken from her. All he does now is walk over to her, the only sounds being made by his shoes against the floor. And when he reaches her, he puts his arms around her and hugs her close. He's not going to speak for the moment. There was nothing he could really say, nothing he could ask. Yeah, he could ask her if she's okay, but he knows her better than probably her own team at this point. She is not okay.
He could ask if there was anything he could do, but there wasn't. At least nothing that would take away or dull the hurt and pain of what she'd been through. All he could do was offer her the comfort of this hug, the warmth of his body. And maybe for a moment, a brief second, help her forget all that she'd been through. He squeezed her tightly like he never wanted to let go, and he didn't. He didn't want to let her escape his embrace, he didn't want to let her go and risk getting hurt more than she already had.]
He could ask if there was anything he could do, but there wasn't. At least nothing that would take away or dull the hurt and pain of what she'd been through. All he could do was offer her the comfort of this hug, the warmth of his body. And maybe for a moment, a brief second, help her forget all that she'd been through. He squeezed her tightly like he never wanted to let go, and he didn't. He didn't want to let her escape his embrace, he didn't want to let her go and risk getting hurt more than she already had.]
[ Weiss had cried plenty the day she'd been taken and killed, but since she woke up she hasn't been doing much of anything. She hasn't let herself feel, she's been trying to avoid anything besides a text or two to let someone know she was safe now- so they didn't come looking for her. Sun and Battler were probably the only ones who knew that she had died- and Sun she hadn't needed to tell, but she figured he knew enough about this place to know that the only way you came out of something like that clean is if you saw that limbo-like place. The place Weiss had almost considered just going to sleep in, so she wouldn't have to face anything anymore. If she never chose what to give up, she was sure she could've just stayed there, forever, unable to be hurt again.It was a moment's consideration to be certain, but in the end Weiss was the type of person who knew if she was capable, she needed to keep going. Anything else would be irresponsible, no matter what she wanted. The pain had been too much to even try to face though once she got back. She had just shut down.
At least that had been the plan until Sun had taken her into his arms. She doesn't fight it, nor tell him not to touch her like she might've normally. She doesn't hug him back at first, but for all she tried not to feel anything, this was the first time she'd felt even remotely safe since she'd gotten back. Sun was always here for her and he knew her better than anyone here in Genessia. Back home they were barely friends, now separated by hundreds of miles and kingdom borders and Grimm. Here they'd spent so much time together being each others' constants that Sun was the only one who Weiss really thought wouldn't leave her. And here he was, the first to find her. The only one to know where she would've gone. It's little wonder that after a few moments of silence she broke down, soft hiccups and sobs breaking into full-on tears as she buried her face against Sun's chest, her hands clinging tightly to his shirt as if it were the only thing she had to hold onto in the world. Sun didn't have to say anything; Weiss just needed him to be there, like he always was. She couldn't forget what happened, but she could let herself feel safe for just a moment, let herself focus on something other than her world crippled at her feet- because Sun was still standing here, with her, even if she felt broken. ]
At least that had been the plan until Sun had taken her into his arms. She doesn't fight it, nor tell him not to touch her like she might've normally. She doesn't hug him back at first, but for all she tried not to feel anything, this was the first time she'd felt even remotely safe since she'd gotten back. Sun was always here for her and he knew her better than anyone here in Genessia. Back home they were barely friends, now separated by hundreds of miles and kingdom borders and Grimm. Here they'd spent so much time together being each others' constants that Sun was the only one who Weiss really thought wouldn't leave her. And here he was, the first to find her. The only one to know where she would've gone. It's little wonder that after a few moments of silence she broke down, soft hiccups and sobs breaking into full-on tears as she buried her face against Sun's chest, her hands clinging tightly to his shirt as if it were the only thing she had to hold onto in the world. Sun didn't have to say anything; Weiss just needed him to be there, like he always was. She couldn't forget what happened, but she could let herself feel safe for just a moment, let herself focus on something other than her world crippled at her feet- because Sun was still standing here, with her, even if she felt broken. ]
Edited 2016-06-22 16:27 (UTC)
[Sun moves a hand up and rest on the back of her head and just cradles her in his arms. Broken or not, Weiss is his friend. His best friend, and he cared for her deeply. She could cry all she wanted to. She could let it out for as long as she liked, because he had no plans to leave her right now. He’d already done that, he’d left his home. And now he was regretting that decision. Maybe if he’d been there, actually stuck around, things could have been different. Maybe they wouldn’t have been so bad or maybe they wouldn’t have happened at all. But it all could have still gone down the same way.
There are so many factors that could have change various outcomes. But honestly, that didn’t matter. Because it did happen, and Weiss needed someone right now. Maybe he didn’t deserve to be the one she needed because of how he’d been treating her, but he didn’t think anyone else was going to show up here unless they figured out the little clues to where she might be.
He wanted to apologize to her, the words were right there on the tip of his tongue. But he couldn’t bring himself to speak them just yet. He shut his eyes and squeezed her tight, fighting the urge to let out his own stream of tears.]
There are so many factors that could have change various outcomes. But honestly, that didn’t matter. Because it did happen, and Weiss needed someone right now. Maybe he didn’t deserve to be the one she needed because of how he’d been treating her, but he didn’t think anyone else was going to show up here unless they figured out the little clues to where she might be.
He wanted to apologize to her, the words were right there on the tip of his tongue. But he couldn’t bring himself to speak them just yet. He shut his eyes and squeezed her tight, fighting the urge to let out his own stream of tears.]
I'm sorry.
[ The words were barely comprehensible through her shaking voice and tears running hard enough that they seemed like she would run dry if she kept that up for long. They may have been on the tip of Sun's tongue, but Weiss felt like there was a lot she had done wrong. What had happened itself wasn't her fault- but she should've seen it. She was supposed to be responsible, supposed to be the one people trusted with their safety. For all that she'd done to become better than she was, stronger than that day that Torchwick had taken she and Blake down, none of it had mattered at all.
She felt worse off now, even if she could hold her own much better as both a fighter and a leader, and it felt as if none of it had mattered. She'd put so much in only to just lose everything little by little. Her company, her integrity, friendships, love and then finally a person she had chosen to trust had taken away her safety, her sense of self-worth, and whatever sense of optimism she'd clung to that if she kept trying things would work out in the end.
In the end, she didn't even know which part of any of this she was apologizing to Sun for. It just felt like the only thing she could say- for all that she had done that hurt him and pushed him away, he was still here for her. He was the one person she wouldn't lose. She clung a little harder to him despite herself, crying harder. If there were any words she was saying, they were lost in the stream of tears falling down her face without any sense of her usual grace or refinement. ]
[ The words were barely comprehensible through her shaking voice and tears running hard enough that they seemed like she would run dry if she kept that up for long. They may have been on the tip of Sun's tongue, but Weiss felt like there was a lot she had done wrong. What had happened itself wasn't her fault- but she should've seen it. She was supposed to be responsible, supposed to be the one people trusted with their safety. For all that she'd done to become better than she was, stronger than that day that Torchwick had taken she and Blake down, none of it had mattered at all.
She felt worse off now, even if she could hold her own much better as both a fighter and a leader, and it felt as if none of it had mattered. She'd put so much in only to just lose everything little by little. Her company, her integrity, friendships, love and then finally a person she had chosen to trust had taken away her safety, her sense of self-worth, and whatever sense of optimism she'd clung to that if she kept trying things would work out in the end.
In the end, she didn't even know which part of any of this she was apologizing to Sun for. It just felt like the only thing she could say- for all that she had done that hurt him and pushed him away, he was still here for her. He was the one person she wouldn't lose. She clung a little harder to him despite herself, crying harder. If there were any words she was saying, they were lost in the stream of tears falling down her face without any sense of her usual grace or refinement. ]
[Sun shakes his head.] No, Weiss. I'm sorry. I should have tried harder to get over my anger towards you. I shouldn't have gotten mad in the first place. I was just being some big dumb idiot Faunus. I should have been here with you and maybe..things could have turned out different.
I'm so sorry, Weiss. So so sorry.
I'm so sorry, Weiss. So so sorry.
[ She shakes her head quickly. After Sun apologizes she's still trying to collect herself enough to properly respond so she just flat out puts a hand over his mouth. It's the best 'shut up' gesture she can do for a few seconds. Once she can finally manage it, her words come out muffled but not as badly as before since she took a moment to try to get herself to speak. ]
The only thing that-- [ Her voice hitches for a moment, another brief pause and a slow but shaky breath. ] That would've been different is that he would've made me watch you too. Then you wouldn't be here now.
[ She already couldn't handle what she had seen. The fact that he hadn't gotten Sun was the only saving grace she had, if it could be called that. ]
The only thing that-- [ Her voice hitches for a moment, another brief pause and a slow but shaky breath. ] That would've been different is that he would've made me watch you too. Then you wouldn't be here now.
[ She already couldn't handle what she had seen. The fact that he hadn't gotten Sun was the only saving grace she had, if it could be called that. ]
[He lets her speak before removing her hand from his mouth.]
I don't care. At least I would have been around. At least I would have been able to at least try to do something instead of not being there when you needed me. I'm sorry you had to go through that. I sorry anyone had to go through that. I should have told you to ditch that guy a long time ago. Maybe he wouldn't have done this if I did.
I don't care. At least I would have been around. At least I would have been able to at least try to do something instead of not being there when you needed me. I'm sorry you had to go through that. I sorry anyone had to go through that. I should have told you to ditch that guy a long time ago. Maybe he wouldn't have done this if I did.
I care! [ She almost screamed it at him. She seemed to have forgotten that she covered his mouth, only moving her hand after he moved it for her, trying to wipe her eyes enough that she could at least see his face. ] I care. I died and I almost didn't come back but I didn't want to leave you alone. I care, or I would've just stayed in that place because it's quiet. So just-- just shut up. This isn't your fault any more than it is mine, and I'm the moron who almost fell in love with a serial killer and only didn't because I was too scared to commit to a relationship, so just shut up because you couldn't have done anything more than I could have and now Flynt and Winter and Blake and Ruby and Jaune-- [ Weiss covers her mouth this time now that she finally said their names out loud. As if she'd admitted that it really, really did happen and it wasn't just some horrifying nightmare she couldn't forget. ]
[Sun would rather endure all the physical injuries in the world than feel like he let down the person he cares the most about. Because doing something always felt better than doing nothing.]
Weiss...
Weiss...
[ She covers her mouth. She didn't even watch the video, she doesn't need to see what got put up on there. She watched the whole thing for anyone he thought she might know. He made her. In pain, freezing cold, injected with god knows what to make sure that she couldn't fall asleep, and even the muscle he hadn't cut through wouldn't move, and she didn't want to think about it- she kept repeating 'don't think about it' in her head, practically screaming in her thoughts as if it would drown out any memories. She didn't say anything for a while, kept her eyes down. When she finally looked up at Sun, the look in her eyes was that of someone who was trying so hard not to break down again. She couldn't stop herself from shaking. ]
Why can't we forget things like this when we die?
Why can't we forget things like this when we die?
Weiss? When you see this, can you text me back?
[That's the extent of Athrun's first message. He just wants to know that Weiss is alive and (physically) healthy.]
[That's the extent of Athrun's first message. He just wants to know that Weiss is alive and (physically) healthy.]
[Artanis decides to use video for this. He can only hope that being able to see his face will prove an additional reassurance.]
Ms. Schnee, I am...terribly sorry about what happened. I feel at least somewhat personally responsible for being unable to aid you when you needed it, and I hope you will forgive me.
However, I imagine you want to focus on that topic as little as possible so I will move on. I have assumed all of your Guardian duties in your absence and will continue to do so to the best of my ability until you feel fit enough to return to duty yourself. Rest assured, I will keep Nova City safe and thriving. Take all of the time you need to recover in both body and mind.
Ms. Schnee, I am...terribly sorry about what happened. I feel at least somewhat personally responsible for being unable to aid you when you needed it, and I hope you will forgive me.
However, I imagine you want to focus on that topic as little as possible so I will move on. I have assumed all of your Guardian duties in your absence and will continue to do so to the best of my ability until you feel fit enough to return to duty yourself. Rest assured, I will keep Nova City safe and thriving. Take all of the time you need to recover in both body and mind.
That would make things a bit too easy, wouldn't it? [He didn't know how the exchange of things went when you died, but he doubted they would let you forget about the experience.]
What did you give up?
What did you give up?
I guess..out of all the things you could give up.. [He's going to miss her singing, though.] I mean, not giving anything up at all would be ideal but..
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