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[hot_handed]

[Sometime after, Weiss will find this essay in her mail. It just turns into 12 pages of bold screaming.]

[whiteas]

[ Points for.. effort, she supposes. He'll get a text message that's probably going to make his head explode though. ]

Essay failed to discuss assigned topic. I asked why you want to be a hero, not what you're going to do to become one.

[hot_handed]

[She's right, his head has exploded in confusion and rage. How could he fail?! He can't fail, it goes against everything he believes in.]

I talked about All Might and him being the reason!!!

[whiteas]

No, you set a goal (and a poorly established one at that). You haven't said anything about why. I want to know your motivations and reasoning.

As I tag at work

[hot_handed]

How the fuck is it poorly established?!?

I guess before I got my quirk, I looked up to All Might. He's the number one hero, and it's always cool how he goes against odds other people would label impossible and give up on before trying and he always comes out on top and wins. He's the epitome of what it means to be a hero and even someone as insignificant as Deku can recognize that. Then when I found out how cool and strong my quirk was, how could I not be a hero?

I've been training and working on being a hero since I was four. There's nothing that's fucking poorly established about it, Ice Ponytail-sensei.

[whiteas]

Having a lot of background wanting to be a hero doesn't make an achieveable goal. Your goals should be specific, measurable, attainable, relevant, and timely. It isn't enough to just say "I want to do this," you have to set standards and requirements for your goals that force you to keep on track with them.

Your reason, then, is that you were inspired to defy expectations by your hero.

[hot_handed]

...I know. [If his quirk had a graph, it would be level right now. He hasn't felt he's made much progress in a while.]

I don't give a shit about expectations. My reason is I want to win like All Might.

[whiteas]

Okay, then why is it important to you that you win like All Might?

[hot_handed]

Because All Might's the number 1 hero. He's a real hero.

[whiteas]

Why is it important to you for someone to be a hero?

[hot_handed]

Because-- It's really fucking cool, okay?! No one can beat All Might, but when I do, then I'll be number one.

[whiteas]

So you want to be strong, then. Why is being strong important to you?

[ They'll make progress on this if she has to hold his hand the entire damn way!! ]

[hot_handed]

Because I AM strong! I have good quirk that can be used multiple ways, and I've spent my life mastering it. I'm strong.

[But not strong enough.]

[whiteas]

Okay, then perhaps I should rephrase: What does it mean to be strong, to you?

You can't answer "to be able to beat everyone else" because that's circular logic based on what you already said.

[hot_handed]

To bea

Fuck

To be like All Might. And to never give up, ever, no matter what odds, and keep fighting no matter what.

[whiteas]

You value determination and grit, then.

Have you ever felt like giving up before, Katsuki?

[hot_handed]

Yeah, I guess.

[Has he? Seeing how stupidly prideful he had been without realizing how big the world is and how there were still people much more skilled than him he couldn't compare to. Being powerless and watching someone even more powerless rush in to help him like he could, like... Being looked down upon by everyone. There have been moments where he felt he wasn't deserving to be the number one hero, but giving up?] No. You hold onto those feelings and use them to fight harder than you ever have before. Only losers give up.

[whiteas]

I've given up a lot, and there was a point I almost gave up entirely.

Why do you believe it's important not to give up?

[hot_handed]

What changed your mind?

All Might doesn't give up. What right do I have to call myself a hero if I give up when things get tough?

[whiteas]

Time to remember what motivated me to want to be strong. Sometimes, things get bad and you realize that no matter how strong you are, there's always someone stronger. Sometimes that person doesn't want anything more than to break everything you are and take away everything you have. It'll pull the universe out from under you, and when that day comes, just wanting to be strong won't be enough.

When that day comes, you need to know why it's important to you to stay strong.

[hot_handed]

[So...Deku, who apparently has resented him so much that he kept the secret of his quirk for over a decade so he could shove it in his face later. Deku, pathetic as he is, somehow having the heroic qualities that Katsuki lacks. It's definitely not the same direction as Weiss is implying, but it's how he views the world.

He was never good enough.]

What motivated you to stay strong?

[whiteas]

I was City Guardian when it happened to me. A lot of people were dragged into it, and people were trying to help, trying to say the right thing to make it all better for those of us who went through that. I was scared and made a decision based on that, and everyone thought I had taken a step forward because they misunderstood those intentions.

It took me a while to understand why people thought that I wasn't finding a way to protect myself but being strong. It's because they needed me to be strong. They needed someone to say that nothing was alright, but that doesn't mean the world stops because of it. People depend on heroes to remind them why they need to keep trying- because every day is a step forward, no matter how awful things get.

I'm strong because the people who need a reason to be strong need me to prove I can. I'm strong because I want to show people that even if you can't see tomorrow, it's still there, no matter what's blinding you to it. Even if it took a lot of time and a lot of understanding from people who care about me to realize that.

[hot_handed]

You sound like him.

[It really pisses him off. No matter how strong he is, no matter how many villains he may defeat, he'll never be able to grasp that. It's the one quality of a hero he lacks, and he hates people who don't for it.]

[whiteas]

Like who?

[hot_handed]

Like All Might. Reassuring people no matter what.