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[He starts to try and speak, frowning apologetically, but the words remain unspoken and in his mind. I know you're not. It's something he needs to find a way to deal with on his own. Despite having some similarities, Weiss and Pyrrha are very different people. So why is he still terrified?
He stays quiet, not interrupting, reflecting over her explanation. Even at her worst, he doesn't think Weiss is capable of being that kind of person. But her words give him insight he didn't have before. He thinks he can understand loving your parents despite everything, though nothing he's had to deal with comes close to how Jacques has treated Weiss. He's still upset-- only at Jacques, for back Weiss into this corner, and at himself, for being a selfish, angry idiot. He had basically proven her father right with the way he'd reacted. It's always been simpler for him to think of good and bad people as separate entities. Weiss has given him a lot to think about.
He cautiously meets her eyes, expression raw. He doesn't think he even deserved an explanation, but Weiss gave him one. Their most recent conversation, and why Weiss had brought up their first decision, made more sense now. God, he had screwed up so much, hurting Weiss more when she was already injured. Glancing away from her, he leans forward nervously, before leaning back again.]
You're braver and smarter than me. But you probably knew that. [More firmly.] I will find a way. I don't know how yet, but...I'm going to. I have to. [He meets her eyes again.] Do you know what you're going to do next yet? About finding yourself and everything? Or are you thinking about just winging it?
[ It's hard to tell if she's teasing or insulting. She's still mad at him, but old habits die hard. Especially when you're the kind of person who keeps letting in people who hurt you, and keeps finding herself drawn to those who will- intentionally or accidentally. But she doesn't elaborate on it. She knows he can handle the insults. She's not exactly kind to him. ]
I'm glad you're going to try. [ She shakes her head. ] All I've wanted to do is protect people, I don't.. quite know what to do with myself now that that's not my role. I've mostly just been exercising a lot, and eating.
[He knows she's still mad, and he's taking this seriously, but it definitely would have been even more concerning if she hadn't insulted him. It gives him the feeling that he can get through this, even if he's going to have to work hard and face things he doesn't want to and has no idea how he'll manage.]
You're starting to sound more like me. [Frowning look he's just saying he's a teenage guy and he eats a lot.]
In my defense, it's because people keep coming over to comfort me. Dorian wanted to go swimming and drink, Nora brought me cake and we worked out and watched a movie, and then Fai opened up this cute coffee shop right outside the Guardian's office so I keep walking over there even though I don't work there anymore because Akira makes really good coffee.
I'm glad you have friends to help you out. [Who aren't colossal jerks which goes unspoken. When was the last time he hung out with anyone other than Weiss outside of work?]
For now I think "I'm going to go figure out what I need to do with myself" is the best thing to say.
[ She told him what she needs from him already, she's not sure hanging out is exactly what she wants right now. ]
I keep letting time and the words "I'm sorry" be the only factor in letting you back in. It's clearly not working that way. I need you to do something about it before we're going to spend normal time together, Jaune. I'm glad you realized that and are going to, but until you do.. chatting about new coffee shops and frozen yogurt is going to have to wait.
[His knuckles pale as he grips his knees.] Right. I'm going to go figure out what to do with myself. Take care of yourself, Weiss. And I know you're mad and I knew I deserve it, but I mean what I said. I'm glad you have other friends.
[He stands up.] I understand. But can I ask why? Why you kept letting me in. You don't have to answer now, or ever if you don't want to...I guess I was just wondering.
[ Despite saying that, she's still going to head over and open the door for him. ]
But you're also not treating me in an acceptable manner so as important as you are to me, I can't let that mean you're hurting me over and over again and expecting me to just bounce back and trust you a week later. That's not fair, and that's not right. [ She's holding the door open for him. ] So get yourself together and then we'll see what we can salvage.
...Yeah. Guess I am. [He's agreeing to both comments, that he is her friend (a terrible one) and a dolt. Definitely a dolt
He follows her to the door, listening to what she says. His eyes start to mist over, and he blinks, trying to hide it as he just stares at her wordlessly. He's not near tears because he's hurting over what he's done, even though he is, but because he's realizing what he's done and that Weiss has done more for him and forgiven him more than any person should. But he manages to force that reaction away, at least until he's no longer in front of her. His voice sounds a bit raw when he does speak.]
You're right. Thanks Weiss. [He shoves his hands in his pockets and starts to leave, brushing his hair (yes his hair) out of his eyes once his back is to her.] I'll talk to you later.
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He stays quiet, not interrupting, reflecting over her explanation. Even at her worst, he doesn't think Weiss is capable of being that kind of person. But her words give him insight he didn't have before. He thinks he can understand loving your parents despite everything, though nothing he's had to deal with comes close to how Jacques has treated Weiss. He's still upset-- only at Jacques, for back Weiss into this corner, and at himself, for being a selfish, angry idiot. He had basically proven her father right with the way he'd reacted. It's always been simpler for him to think of good and bad people as separate entities. Weiss has given him a lot to think about.
He cautiously meets her eyes, expression raw. He doesn't think he even deserved an explanation, but Weiss gave him one. Their most recent conversation, and why Weiss had brought up their first decision, made more sense now. God, he had screwed up so much, hurting Weiss more when she was already injured. Glancing away from her, he leans forward nervously, before leaning back again.]
You're braver and smarter than me. But you probably knew that. [More firmly.] I will find a way. I don't know how yet, but...I'm going to. I have to. [He meets her eyes again.] Do you know what you're going to do next yet? About finding yourself and everything? Or are you thinking about just winging it?
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[ It's hard to tell if she's teasing or insulting. She's still mad at him, but old habits die hard. Especially when you're the kind of person who keeps letting in people who hurt you, and keeps finding herself drawn to those who will- intentionally or accidentally. But she doesn't elaborate on it. She knows he can handle the insults. She's not exactly kind to him. ]
I'm glad you're going to try. [ She shakes her head. ] All I've wanted to do is protect people, I don't.. quite know what to do with myself now that that's not my role. I've mostly just been exercising a lot, and eating.
[ People keep bringing her pity food. ]
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[He knows she's still mad, and he's taking this seriously, but it definitely would have been even more concerning if she hadn't insulted him. It gives him the feeling that he can get through this, even if he's going to have to work hard and face things he doesn't want to and has no idea how he'll manage.]
You're starting to sound more like me. [Frowning look he's just saying he's a teenage guy and he eats a lot.]
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There's a cute coffee shop? Who's Akira?
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[ She's still mad at him for sure. ]
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[He hugs his arm, not even registering the name.]
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[ She told him what she needs from him already, she's not sure hanging out is exactly what she wants right now. ]
I keep letting time and the words "I'm sorry" be the only factor in letting you back in. It's clearly not working that way. I need you to do something about it before we're going to spend normal time together, Jaune. I'm glad you realized that and are going to, but until you do.. chatting about new coffee shops and frozen yogurt is going to have to wait.
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[He stands up.] I understand. But can I ask why? Why you kept letting me in. You don't have to answer now, or ever if you don't want to...I guess I was just wondering.
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[ Despite saying that, she's still going to head over and open the door for him. ]
But you're also not treating me in an acceptable manner so as important as you are to me, I can't let that mean you're hurting me over and over again and expecting me to just bounce back and trust you a week later. That's not fair, and that's not right. [ She's holding the door open for him. ] So get yourself together and then we'll see what we can salvage.
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He follows her to the door, listening to what she says. His eyes start to mist over, and he blinks, trying to hide it as he just stares at her wordlessly. He's not near tears because he's hurting over what he's done, even though he is, but because he's realizing what he's done and that Weiss has done more for him and forgiven him more than any person should. But he manages to force that reaction away, at least until he's no longer in front of her. His voice sounds a bit raw when he does speak.]
You're right. Thanks Weiss. [He shoves his hands in his pockets and starts to leave, brushing his hair (yes his hair) out of his eyes once his back is to her.] I'll talk to you later.
[And then he leaves.]